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I wasn’t a big cat lover until I met this old grey tiger.
She passed away yesterday. She loved sleeping in that basket. She was having breathing problems, a trip to the vet confirmed my worst fears. One of her lungs was riddled with aggressive cancer and than some. As the doctor told me the prognosis my heart tore asunder and the devastation set in. Deciding to end her life was highly emotional and upsetting, pet or not, she is a loved one, part of the family like most other deeply loved pets. I haven’t cried this much in years. (yea, yea, I know. I’m a damn softie) I miss her terribly, she would be sitting on my lap right now, purring happily as I pecked away at the keyboard. She always loved to get up on my lap all the time, and she loved making biscuits.
I buried her under the tree where I first found her four years ago. When, we first crossed paths she was starved to the point of near-death. Clearly abandoned, seeking shelter from the harsh Nevada Desert cold in the dry leaves, or looking for a bite of mouse to eat, probably both. She loved our garden, protecting it she finished many rat-killing quests and always loved to show off her trophies. She was the perfect cat for me, she was so sweet, kind, and loving. To the family anyway, well mainly my pops, I, and, my bro-in-law. She was definitely a guys cat. She didn’t care much for strangers, and I never blamed her, she got that from me after awhile. haha. Funny how that happens. She was never any trouble at all, I still can’t believe how fantastic and well behaved she was, especially for an older cat! She was my old kitty. I’m glad she didn’t suffer any longer in what would have been pure selfishness on my part. I’m glad I loved her, I showed her a lot, she was my only pet so it wasn’t hard spoiling her with attention. I’m glad she took me in, and not the other way around. 
Not all cats are terrible! haha. Yea, I thought they were, but nope. Not this one — all I had to do was give her a chance. Maybe one will change your mind someday if you feel that way about cats. You know, I hate depressing posts, I didn’t really want to post something this personal. I’m sorry if this makes anyone upset or no one gives two shits either way. I don’t expect you too. It makes me feel a little better to write about it, yes, here, on a silly MMOG blog. If you have pets, please take a break from all the MMOG bullshit, and go give your pets a hug or a scratch behind the ear. Spend more time with them! And no, I won’t get another cat right away. Adopting another cat or a dog might help me deal with the pain, (my fam thinks I should adopt right away) but I don’t plan on it, maybe never again, unless they find me.
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My condolences. I currently have enough cats that I won’t say how many here because I’m probably violating some laws. They’re definitely part of my family, and some of them are not in the greatest of health (either old, or never were very healthy). I’ve lost cats before, and I know I’ll outlive these (with any luck, anyway), and it always sucks.
All of my cats are shelter or feral rescue cats except for the one we got outside a WalMart. With most of them, they quite possibly never would have been adopted if we hadn’t (one had been in the shelter more than a year and a half when I got her) and a few would definitely have died without a lot of love and attention. I raised some of them from infancy on formula. The only consolation we get when they’re gone is that we made their lives better, and they did the same for us. Right now, one of them is trying to “help” me type, and I’m glad to have her there even if the help is counter-productive.
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–Dave (that last part’s from her, let me know if you can figure out what she’s saying)
Hey Dave, it’s really great to hear from you. I miss your blogs.
There—I reached over and gave the kitties a scritch each. Pets are a part of the family and losing them is really hard. I’m glad you two got to have some nice years together.
*hug* The last time i cried was when my dog Kasei. She had been my pet since i was 3 and died the summer i got out of high school at 17. It really like losing a family member.
I’m so sorry to hear about your cat.
Reading your entry made me all teary-eyed, and I had to go give my own two felines (Horus and Bastet) a cuddle. I know I would weep for days when the time came for them.
A big hug from me. And really, if you don’t feel right about getting another cat, then trust your gut feeling and forget what your family says — well-meaning though they are. A couple of years ago, the eight-month-old kitten that my husband and I had adopted with Horus (we named her Nekita) was diagnosed with FIV. The vet said she’d probably had it since birth. She’d been getting lethargic, cried all the time, and didn’t want to eat anything. She also couldn’t control her muscles very well, couldn’t jump, couldn’t get to the litterbox in time (which really distressed her). She was also going blind. We didn’t have the heart to keep her this way and decided to put her down. I cried all the way home. She’d been with us for only four months, but it still ripped me up inside. That night my husband held me and comforted me, saying that at least she lived out her last months with us, in an actual home and surrounded by love, instead of alone and more scared at the animal shelter we got her from.
We didn’t get another cat for half a year, until we found this black kitten crying near the street. She was full of fleas, thin, and quite scruffy. Took her to the vet, cleaned her up, took care of the flea problem (after she inadvertantly infested the entire apartment!), and named her Bastet.
I still think of Nekita, but memories of her don’t hurt anymore. I always knew I’d adopt another cat when the timing was right — it may sound sentimental and really stupid, but I always thought that Nekita would’ve liked it, that I was taking care of another fellow feline and giving it a good life.
Sorry for your loss dude, little doggehs are the best things in the world, especially when they’re actually little kittehs and you just call em little doggehs. Somebody send a heal this mans way, we needs him for teh raidz!
I am sorry for your loss. Last year my 20 year old cat died and I also cried a lot.
Thankfully I still have one kitty left, who was born in 1988. She has been with me since I was 10 and after reading your post, when I get home from work I will be giving her a nice big hug.
I also don’t think I’ll get another car after she passes.
You never mentioned her name?
Sorry for your pain. There are cats that can get past even the most ardent cat hater. I had one like that. He pretty much sealed the deal with my wife. When she met me, she hated cats. When she married me, I was pretty sure it was to get possession of that cat. When we had to have the cat put down, it was a very tough day indeed. A tough week, actually.
No, don’t get another cat right away. That is the most direct path to disappointment, because the next cat will never be the same cat. (The same with dogs.)
A few years back, I had to do the same thing to my own gray tiger, due to nearly the same issue. His tumor was on the heart. I generally dislike cats, but Smokey was like a dog that purred. My condolences, mate.
Thanks for the moving post.
I felt a similar need to write about loss when our oldest cat, Max, passed on.
The responses I received were very touching and helped a lot.
Krones,
I’m sorry for your loss.
Growing up on a quasi-farm we had quite a few animals. With that being the case, we also had them pass away over time. Recently I had to give up both my cats to a friend due to my wife’s allergies. I cried so much because I truly loved them. Over the past 2 years we picked up two dogs. They are wonderful, but a handful compared to our cats.
Death is a scary thing. It is a sad thing. No matter how hard I try to be optimistic about “eternity”, I just can’t shake my fear of death. I’ll keep you in my prayers homie.
KK